Existence PerspectivesHow endless the possibilities By which our journey may enfold. And how comforting to think we have agency, But how much of it do our...
Rhymes of WisdomWhen it comes to life, Time steals. When you survive death, Time heals. When you find it, Love can convert. When you loose it, Love will...
Finding meaning.I lived with anxiety, with unceasing fear Constantly worried of what happens this year. I stayed isolated, pulled back from friends...
To my home in NYBoth in sickness and in my health; From small pay through the accumulation of wealth. In my serenity and beyond my anxiety; From drunken...
Food obsessionsLife or death decisions Precede my every meal Life or death decisions In choosing which oatmeal Sugar, oil and bread Taste better than...
HopeI hope These thoughts will someday be long gone, far away I hope They feel foreign, like my long lost hunger decay I hope To bring to my...
Time that is not freeI spent a couple of hours delaying to write. Hungry for words, the words found me. I spent a couple of days beating around the bush....
in recoveryBroken vase once full of flowers, My life was shattered, pieces apart. The missing fractions I am seeking, But what if they can be...
NYC days, weeks, months, and years.Aggressive. Starting before dawn with a soulcycle workout; Ending well into dusk: alcoholic blackout. Blissful. Coffee-aroused, strutting...
The Biology of StarvationHunger and restriction These feelings I would chase The were my big addiction My very happy place One after another They usually came...
Anorexia SummerThose faint summers back in July Days were passing, and I felt high. High in spirits, high in disguise When dark crept up I felt alive....
Dos and don’ts to happiness.Don’t censor opinions, express how you feel, Never be sorry for purely being real. Expose own emotions and act as you please, When...
Remember, remember that day in September.The beginning of a year where I thought I would be lead nowhere. I was unable to make the split. Thankfully, rock bottom I hit. When you...
Recovery, loophole for access to the SoulWoken by the alarming feel of anxiety, Promptly out of bed we must climb. To merge with the rest of early rise society, We rush to get...
Mediocrely versing through recovery. Carpe diem.Although I never intended to loose any mass, Pleasure I found, in how fast my hunger pangs pass. Then came the day, When all it took was...