Aggressive. Starting before dawn with a soulcycle workout; Ending well into dusk: alcoholic blackout. Blissful. Coffee-aroused, strutting down Mercer and Green; Rosé-buzzed, limping from the bars in Brooklyn. Candid. About the one too many guys you are dating all at once, But also the anxiety of non-existing romance. Dedicated. Bonding with all folks around you became a sacred purpose, Missing that this many ties can only form on the surface. Energetic. Ice cream, drinks, goo

Hunger and restriction These feelings I would chase The were my big addiction My very happy place One after another They usually came Each time they found each other I attained an aim The cravings never last They easily die As soon as they have past Came feelings of a high Something transcendent In the avoidance of food, On it I was dependent To stay in a good mood Each urge to skip a meal I had to satisfy I could never heal Until I learned why